This has been a difficult couple of weeks,

I had to go to hospital,

I was ill ,

/after the conversation became an assault on me ,

                                            as usual in the company of that person,

, I know the isolation my diet hThis has been a difficult couple of weeks,

I had to go to hospital,

I was ill ,

/after the conversation became an assault on me ,

                                            as usual in the company of that person,

, I know the isolation my diet has shown me, the mental anguish of trying to present as vegan ,

my internal fears,I took tablets and antibiotics in liquid form, the drugs fixed the huge infection I had,

and the hospital as usual put my mind at rest, being where the people nurture me back to  health,

the pain ceased with the antibiotics,discharged with pain killers , co-codamol ,I needed  more to recover the knowledge of recovery is in me

and can become a meditation,something to enjoy in the knowledge that the peak of illness has passed and that is a relaxant itself.

However the sledge hammer hit me ,sure I had just passed out momentarily,on my way as usual, back to my bed,and safety,

a comment about the tablets , the truth but unfair and perverse in the pleasure it generated for the person making the comment, though

it helps me to tolerate people with labels such as autistic even uneducated, to be educated and sincere need strict definition, my only company

a mother who finds the holes and a lady who is small, a drugs and drink mechanic the confidant , a sister and a brother in law who is clever, a

doctor, a man I have little met but talked a lot about,

to me the whole subject of eating meat involves the word primitive, and should I present my credentials to a meat I will confront their lifestyle

automatically i label them primitive, that does not endear me to them, the whole question of intelect and intelligence become subjective

and not to construct a pyramid with levels of comprehension is always available,how inteligent could I be, technical cooperation brings

such progress in technology becomes intelligence and the brutality of living ignored the nirvana looking distant and unattainable.

Those tablets , well as far as I know all the medicine in the UK, nhs has to be tested to standards and those standards involve animal experimentation

and said to myself and others, namely he above,I wouldn't take them ! well I did ,that's an internal struggle with me, the antiobiotics took all

my pain away, long before the doctor thought I needed pain killers.

as shown me, the mental anguish of trying to present as vegan ,

my internal fears,I took tablets and antibiotics in liquid form, the drugs fixed the huge infection I had,

and the hospital as usual put my mind at rest, being where the people nurture me back to  health,